Music

I have always wanted to be musically inclined, but sadly I have never been. I can recreate music, but I don't get it well enough to make my own... Even in the rare instances where I have gotten an instrument well enough to feel comfortable just kind of playing around jazz-styles with it I still can not create.

This used to bother me for a long time, since "Its music, its a universal language," and I may fancy myself a story teller but that is just how she goes, "Thats the way of the road Bubs."

To clarify, as a creative type I can create worlds, and people... Give me 15 minutes and some inspiration and I can have a world fleshed out well enough that many would assume I have been working on it for years just waiting for an opportunity to show it off. I have met many people that make stories but their characters always seem flat their description slightly modified versions of someone else's words, they just didn't have the ability to create in the necessary fashion... This is not a problem, if they never get caught or know to go to someone who can help them with their short comings, but they just can not on their own.

An other example is: I have known many great cooks, but all they can do is follow a recipe they have no imagination when it comes to modification, this does not mean they are bad, just that everything they make tastes exactly the way it should, which is great, but not imaginative.

So I always wished I could make music, not play music or read music... But make it, I used to be able to play and read music I am very out of practice, but making it is what I lust after. I have never been great at lyrics, though I used t write poetry all the time back when I was misunderstood... And I can not, for the life of me, understand how people put notes together to form a feeling in the air that carries the intent across.

What about you all, do you wish you had a skill/talent that just seems not to be in the cards? Am I alone in this? (That was a dumb question) Do you feel like sharing?

"Dog will hunt I'm the front end loader travoltin' over so try my slam on for size drive stick with that kung-fu grip let the banana split and watch it go right to your thighs" - The Bloodhound Gang

Your Current and Forever King
The King Badger

Gender

So, as a white, American, male, I might have no business opening my mouth here but I have something to say and want to share it with anyone who wants to hear it.

As I am ageless, and was not born, it might make no sense for me to say the following but it is the best way to preface what I am going to ramble about: Growing up my mother used to say to my sisters that if they wanted to find a man they needed to act more like girls... This phrase has always pissed me off, for many reasons...

Reason one, I have been attracted to tomboys for a long time, and the few time that I meet a girl that is a tomboy in here adulthood she is attracted to other women. I have no problems with that, except that I am not in the running. I am not saying that phrases like that lead to people being attracted to persons of the same gender, but I am also not saying that they don't.

I once spent a summer pissing off two of my homosexual friends by insisting that homosexuality is a fetish. When I brought this up to another heterosexual friend he point out that it totally is... Though not just homosexuality, heterosexuality, bisexuality.... any type of sexuality really. I have a fetish for women, which is more acceptable, publicly (I assume, because this fetish leads to more people) it is not any more, or less, relevant.

The problem is, my fetish for women pertains more to women who identify as men, and are still attracted to men... Mostly because I am a man. I feel that anyone who has anything to say about who and what your are attracted to has no right to comment, though if your wants/wishes involve hurting unwilling participants (Or minors) then you should not act on those...

I don't mean to judge but hurting people that don't want to be hurt, and molesting (physically/mentally) beings who are not old enough to handle a situation, then I do feel that you are doing the human race a disservice. I can not judge, and try though I might to not I still judge in those situations.

"I wake up every evening with a big smile on my face, and it never feels out of place. And you're still probably working at a nine to five pace, I wonder how bad that tastes." The All-American Rejects.

Be who you are going to be, be attracted to who you are attracted, know that you are human and we are all flawed.
King Badger

Spirits of The Night

I danced, this morning, with the spirits of the night. They have accepted me as one of them, and they are a big part f who I am, yet I am not one of their society. They share with me their secrets and teach me their  ways... Though sadly I do not understand their language.

I raced, with them, to sleep. I do not mean sleep as in the opposite of wakefulness, I mean death.Not mine, theirs. There are stories in the culture of one who have managed to find the dark and stay their through the bombardment of the day star, and the wonders that exist in the light, but they do not know of them well.

As I said I can not speak their language, which is mostly movement based, my meat body is far too goofy and imprecise to converse with them. Some of them understand what I say, but they are silent and can not translate for me... Watching my stories unfold, in interpretive dance, is beautiful... But I don't understand it.

When next you find yourself alone in the dark seek out these spirits, they are friendly and harmless, they will share with you their culture and many gifts if you cant take them, but they are god times.

"Have you ever walked through a room, but it was more like the room passed around you? Like there was a leash around your neck that pulled you through?" The Offspring

Remember babies, the badger loves you,
King Badger